- "Do you ever think about all the people who you might have fallen in love with if only you’d taken a different way home or stood a little longer in the bread aisle at the supermarket? All the people who might have been an integral part of your life but instead you’ll never know them. The unimaginable impact that our mundane choices have on our lives really gets to me. Think of how many times I might have died if I’d made different choices. Maybe I’d be homeless. Maybe I’d be famous. Maybe I’d be rich. Sometimes I’m so overwhelmed by the impact of my choices that I can’t choose anything at all because I’m afraid today will be the day that I make the choice that changes everything."
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Priorities.
I feel left out tonight. A friend of mine asked me to go the boat dance with her, but I couldn’t go. I had homework to do and I just finished it a few minutes ago.. could’ve done that earlier during the week, though. And I could’ve finished it this morning — afternoon also! But I ended up going to Japan Town for the Cherry Blossom Festival (quickstyle). Time management and staying away from procrastination continue to be a challenge. What kind of man turns down a fancy yet inexpensive boat dance that includes free- unlimited alcoholic drinks? What kinda man turns down an invite to sleep over in an apartment with five girls right afterwards? Daaaang. I don’t drink, but the other perks that come with attending that event sound incredibly tempting. Haha. Now I’m stuck looking at their facebook and instagram pictures wishing I had went. Boo..sometimes I get bothered by how much I stay in that little comfort zone. Having homework and studying wouldn’t have been an excuse if I didn’t procrastinate either. Oh well. Next Year. The last spring semester before graduation.
On a lighter note, I think I discovered what kind of RN I want to be: I want to be an OR Nurse. Even though It’s silly to judge from just a one day experience, I just feel like I belong there. Got to witness a total knee arthroplasty and an ORIF (Open Reduction Internal Fixation). I also got to see an autograft done to someone whose flesh got feasted on by necrotizing fasciitis a.k.a flesh eating bacteria.That last one was kind of a disturbing sight, but it was interesting and in fact, all the cases were. Being a circulating nurse in the OR seems fantastic. They make sure everyone maintains proper sterile technique, call time-outs to confirm patient/ proper surgery, and care for the patient during pre, intra, and post surgeries. What’s cool about it also is that the cases are different every time. It’s not the same old procedures all day erryday. What’s even more cool about it is that the patients are sedated; I don’t have to deal with the patient’s personality during most of the shift. Don’t have to worry about getting swung at. Additionally, they get to work with doctors, surgeons, and anesthesiologists. Further training is required to be an OR Nurse, but I might just be up for it. If I play my cards right, I will be a very successful man in the future :). Right now, I’m just trying to pass and learn as much as I can this semester.
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Ramen
Now I know why people say Majikku Ramen in Daly City ain’t as good as other ramen places. After trying out multiple restaurants in San Mateo, the ramen from Majikku doesn’t compare at all. Haven’t written in this thing for a long time… do people still use this?
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Geeks - Officially Missing You
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The Lumineers - Ho Hey
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Lucky
Blessed with a great family.
Glad for making new friends. Good friends who you will argue with but by the end of the day, still be there. Well..so far at least haha.
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Where is she
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Keep Going
Rough day today. The last two patients were difficult. I won’t violate HIPPA by disclosing patient information, of course. But sometimes I wonder whether it’s my fault for being an easy target. Although the clinical instructor tells me that I am doing the best I can to handle the situation, I can’t help but beat myself up. Damn.
I got insulted and cussed out by a patient today. Last week was a challenge also, I ain’t trying to get swung at. Fridays make me nervous. You Never know what’s going to happen. That’s how it is for the nurses. I need to learn how to approach aggressive clients properly. Being too nice and asking for permission too many times will just give them control. Need to find that balance. One quality of a nurse that I need right now is to be able to block out verbal assaults. But I don’t know…those words got to me. Not suppose to take them personally, but it just got me thinking…nurses dedicate their lives trying to help others, but not all patients will appreciate that. Some patients want to give up. Nurses deal with so much crap mentally and physically. Most of the time literally crap. I respect them so much (as well as firefighters and those who fight for our country). And I hope one day, I can respect and be proud of myself just like how proud and respectful I am of those legit nurses and those who risk their lives for the safety of others.
Sometimes I wonder why the heck I chose this major. It’s a hit or miss. You’ll enjoy it one day, you’ll hate it the other. For me anyway. Or maybe I’m just saying this cause I had a bad day. I don’t know, shoot.
Just gotta try not to take what happened today too seriously, learn from it, and keep moving forward. I have SO much more to learn. I feel like I’m growing too slow that I can’t overcome the increasing obstacles in life. Gah. Bad day. Leaving all this negative emotions in this solitude. Tomorrow is a new day. Got this.
